Sorry...

我..
又在对不起你..
我真的真的不应该..
被你认识..
我认识你就够了...
我爱你就够了..
我不再..
不再..要求多了..
我不可以在要求多了...
但当我还没离开马来西亚时..
我有很多希望...



希望...
你会告诉我..
我要知道的事情...
希望..
我还可以继续..
和你..
希望...
时光倒流...
希望一切都没发生过...
希望..
我不会给你带来很多麻烦...


我也有很多个喜欢...
喜欢..
每当要你帮忙时的眼神..
都是笑着的..
喜欢..
你跟我讲话时的声音..
喜欢..
你每一句跟我说过的'累'
喜欢..
被你安慰的感觉..
被你酸的感觉..



当我不在马来西亚时...
请你照顾好自己..
我在那边..
会好想念你的..
会躲在房里..
累里掉泪..

我写酱多..
是因为..
我怕一去不回...
我怕我没向你说我对你的种种感受..
因为...



我真的真的很爱你...
我怕失去你..
我怕我长大了...
我怕...

我永远都没有这种机会了....


爱你...
真的真的很爱你....


哭了...



时近时远...


我不要看到你辛苦的样子...
我不要看到你被我缠着的样子..

还有两天...
我...
飞了...


但我的心是在你那里..
请你锁好...
别弄丢了...^^...


掰掰...哒...~~



Written by me....
Time: -----
Day: Everyday....

Gud morning..^^
Gud nitezz...
Muax..

When I'm kissing you..

Sometimes..
I'll look back..
Think everything again..
And..
I'll feel different..
From now..
There's only left 3 more months in school..
I'm not that kind of brave person..
Brave to say I miss you..
Brave to say anything about my feelings towards you..
Hard to say..
So I flashed back to the time when we're kissin..
And this song..explain everything..^^

Sparks fly
Its like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breath
You get closer and there's
No where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Its frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I've never seen

Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Past loves
They never got very far
Walls of made sure
I've got in my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it's love

Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

{I'll miss our time..^^}

Mood is back..

haha..I'm back lor..
Now currently in Legion Hotel..
read back all those things you wrote..
the blog your feeling watever..
haizz...
my novel mood is back..
haha..
zz...
sienzz...
this holidays end so fast..
lol..
i wonder how times fly..
mid-year exam's over..
is mid year now..
zz...
june..july..
and tat comes august..
zzz...
so fast..
i cant enjoy a single MY MOMENT yet..
zzzz...
always kena marah lar..
diao lar..
zz...
demand lar...
scold lar...
a lot a lot bad bad things happen to me loo.....zzz
kesian...

next sunday i gonna present something liao..
zzz...
dunno wat song to sing oso..
haizz..
english definitely..
ur chinese song nice oo...
luv it..haha..


ok..now wan go shopping liao..
zz...
^^..muaxXx..^^

So Sour..

In other words..
Sour means hurt..
But in the sense of hurting in the heart and you can't feel it right through..
You only can feel it with a deep sense of feeling..
Well..
To make thing easy..
I'm not that softcore anymore..
And what I'm trying to say is..
If you're gonna mess with me..
FO..!!
It means fuck off..!!!
And I don't really like what I'm feeling now..
Sour..
Very very sour..
And I'm going to make sure if this feeling ever comes to me again..
I'll definitely go mad..
Really really mad..


Enough of that..haha..

Hey..countdown to your b'day..

Haha..

It's..

Hmm..

15 days more..

K-kinda busy..

***************************************

Sorry..gotta go..

Tata..

Your w0Rds...

It deeply stacked..
It doesn't hurt..
Coz I know it's gone..
I'll be by ur side..
Tat's true..
Dont wan to see you weak..
Always wished u're mine..
But it Doesn't matter now..
As long as we're still talking to each other..
Believing you and me..
Trusted faithfully..
I'll be glad enough..

My need is my need..

I know how to seal it..

Being tough is my need..

Zzz..

Do I really look so Kind..?

Guess I'm too kind to be bullied..

Haiz...

Thx for your words..

haha..

Guess I'll learn from my kindness to be cruel a bit..

And ur lyrics..

Nice..

Thx..

Tired..

This few days...
Damn tired...
Not gonna sick..
Not gonna fall..
Just want to be by your side..
Always..
Felt tired everyday..
Can't perform well even the first day..
And I felt moody..
Very bored..
Who can make me laugh..?
Who can make me have one big smile..?
Even if it is just only one..
I'll be glad enough..
Couldn't send a message to you and my friends..
How would my life be any usefull..

Sleep..

Yawn..

Lie..

Think..

Who..?

Anyone that make me smile..

Yawn..

Sleep..

Nitezz..

Damn..

Nothing to write actually..Sigh...~
Just wait for the time to come..
I actually wanted the post so much..!!
But then there's 11 PERSONS wanted the post ( including me myself )..^^''
And by the way..
I hereby tell YOU ALL...
Those who visits my blog..

Don't make me hard to make decisions oo...~
When I b'com Head ler..
I won't give a DAMN to you all..
Just DAMN you..
Muahaha..
Even if I'm a probationary de...~

Waiting...  :)...

Evil..Hehe...

Self-Sealed..

Today..
We'd finally spoke to each other..
This 5 days..
Each moment was a torture to me..
Each moment was terrible to me..
Thought I was being tough enough..
But I still couldn't resist the pain..
The scar..
Everything..

We might be best friends..
We might be to close to each other..
But for one thing that I could never forget..
Is that I'll still care for you..
^^..~
That I'll still feel for you..
^^..~
I hereby apologise to you..
Thanks and sorry..~

Try..

I'll try to forget about you..
I'll try to stay cool on the outside..
I'll try to be strong..
I'll try to make myself easy..
I'll try to try as hard as possible..
But how long can I stand..?

I keep on saying how can I'd done such a thing..
But instead of an answer..
I got a question as a reply..
My own heart can't bear the pain..
If that is true..
Then what about my outer layer..?
Is that even more worst..?

Don't worry..
I'll try to get to you eventually..
I'll try..
I'll try to apologize..
I'll try to recover everything..
I'll try my best..

I'll try to stay as normal as I can..
I'll try everything..
All for one reason..
Because..

Fif0v3fu...

<演唱会?>

哈哈..
昨晚的演唱会..
不用钱的哦..~
以前只会吵父母带我去看演唱会..
昨天给他们讲回了..
咋到..~~

还好啦..
只是很多马来猪..
zzzzz...
你的糖不要了吗..?
哈哈..
我还没吃完咧..~
在冰箱..
哇咔咔..

十一点多了..
lol..我阿姨吵着要去satay celup..
才要离开广场..
呵呵..
还好还没走之前..
那歌手..{忘了名}..zz
唱起了Beyonce 的 halo..
高兴到...~~
哈哈..noob..

...................................................................................................................................

那两天的camp..
过的不爽..
我看我不能够..
少..
...
...
总之很闷啊..~

显..

掰掰..

muax

再见感情..

为什么我天天都试着归你..
但却不属于你的..
暖昧..
为什么我要他..
但我却不这怎么下手..
暖昧..
为什么我在爱情的路上..
往往都不会完好..
.....
因为..
我再怎么挣扎..
我也逃不出自己那一关..
我设法像我自己..
但我却不能..


我要对感情说声再见..
我在这一方面不好..
也不能很彻底的去了解你..
说放下..
有那么容易吗..~

我说放下了..
但事实上我有吗..~
我不会玩感情..
可以的话..
我不想要有感情..

感情..
就是死神..

 Noted by:

敢爱却又放不下的人..

The forsaken..

Every single moment was worth-living..
Even when you couldn't speak to me anymore..
And when every minutes passed by..
I always thought my love to you was shallow..But instead..
I love you more than myself..

Sometimes..

It's hard to believe in fate..

But it gives us more than thy could..

It gives us our destiny..

And we can't deny it..

Not even changing a single period..

It tells us who we are..

And what is our road to success..

Or..

To failure..

Fate..

Begins with a little cloud..

Ends with a strong tornado..

Or an earthquake..

It begins with one heart..

But ends with broken-pieces of hearts..

It begins with one love..

But ends with multiple choice..

Fate..

Is always the number of one..

But ends with the number of infinity..

The word fate..

Is actually combined with four words..

Fear

As

Though

Eager

Your eagerness will come to an ending with fear..

And fate sets every ending for us..

Whether it is a Happily Ever After..

Or..

The Forsaken..

MuaxXx..

Arsh..~

I thought new year is just started..Well, it seems to be much more shorter than i thought..

Sleep in a deserted land called Benta..located in pahang of course..with no line and net or even air-con..Sshhss..In chinese..We called 'Sienzz'..
For 5 days i stayed in my grandparents' house..at least my room had line..
Trying hard to get some sponsors too..(for that idiotic prefectorial camp)..struggled to get for RM140..(not include ang pao money..!!!!!)
My mouth barely opened..while in this situation..in hokkien we call..'paiseh'..haha..
But it turned out to be pretty fine..
Coz i got every single money from my relatives..
haha..cooll.~~

tata..

In the nitez of all awaken zombies..

Within cold and icy breeze..

As i switch off my light..

Then it's time to say goodnitez..

Haha..
MuaxXx..~

刚出院..

我想..
我又再脆弱下去了..
从去年开始..
恶运连连缠着我..
我想..
再多一个打击..
我不想活了..
我的意志力很弱..
真的真的很弱..
昨天四点多时..
眼睛睁得大大的..
我睡不着..
住在第三楼..
幸好窗口是关住的..
要不然我真的会跳了下去..
没有丝毫的玩笑..
在你的眼中..
虽然我没有什么东西..
但我还是会感到自卑的..
真的真的很自卑..

算了..

算了..

原来爱..是复杂的

Y..
原来爱一个人..
会辛苦..
原来爱一个人..
会为他付出一切..
原来爱一个人..
是很难表达出来的..
原来爱一个人..
会设法让他感觉到..
原来爱..
是很复杂的...

我不喜欢牛奶..

我喜欢热饮..

但同样的..

我爱喝咖啡..

曾经上瘾了一阵子..

但那种感觉是不会消失的..

永远都留在我心里..

爱..

也会上瘾的..

我相信这一次..

我真的找不到解药..

我又再度地中毒了..

P..

虽然不是时常能在一起..

但我也无所谓..

我只知道..

我很会痴爱..

太过痴爱了..

我知道那是永远不会实现的..

那种爱是不会再有的..

我相信我一生中只能够找到一次..

这样的爱..

就这么一次..

我越陷越深..

越爱越深..

我不能够在找回那种爱了..

我会好好珍惜你的..

你千万不要再做傻事了..

爱你..

C..

Friday~

Long time..~!

Ho..Ho..ho...
Luv ya..~
Miss ya..~
and definitely..
Luv ya again..~
Haha..
Form 4's life huh..
tough..
Hard..
And definitely..
Tough again..~
Busy all the way down this Month..
I mean..Come to think about it..
It's just the Beginning..!!!
How can I hold on..throughout the whole year..?
Boring..~
But at least I'm good..~
Hehe..~
Bye for now..~
Hope ya enjoy everything this new year..~~

Lasstt Posstt..

Haizz..
sien liao lor..
I cant everyday use computer liao..>.<''
So kelian..~~
nvm ba..
Form 4 ler..
need to focus and study hard..!
I believe in myself..
I can do it..
Bluek..~
Bye everyone..
Wait til new year I jux can use again..!